July 1st, 2021 – Listening to James Arthur & Anne-Marie’s “Rewrite The Stars”
Today is the unofficial start of my holiday. Unofficial, because based on the academic calendar, holiday starts on July 7th, which is next week. Unofficial, because today becomes my first day of holiday after I finally submitted my last final assignment last night.
After more than a year doing online classes and staying at home literally 24/7 at least 6 days out of 7 (because I have no social life that way), even the introvert side of me begins to feel tired too. I rarely contact my friends during exam season and no one live close enough to hang out safely, so I miss them a lot. We only have one class together this semester and since I am half a year later than them academically, I probably won’t be able to meet them in class next semester. Talking about a lone wolf, right?
But even with all the longing and the boring routines of my life, today is still a beginning of the precious holiday season. Probably even my last holiday as a college student (can’t you believe that?). This strangely gives me a lot of pressure. I want to be able to cherish this holiday, but also aware that watching TV shows all day every day will get old fast.
For this, hmm, dry season (high five to all tropical countries resident), I plan to work more consistently with my blog which was so much neglected for the last month. I currently have two on-going fiction projects hiding somewhere under the dust, so I’ll give my priority to those beloved babies. It’s also been a while since I write any poem, since after taking Popular Writing course this semester I worked only on short stories, so it will be nice to drop one or two poems every month. I was considering uploading my short stories which I worked on the course too, but many of them are personal stories of mine and I am not so comfortable sharing it online. I might find a way to revise them so that they’re safe enough to be shared, but for now I have no strong desire to do so.
Aside from writing, I would like to join committee and organizations again. I “retired” from most of my organizations’activities after my bipolar diagnosis so that I could focus more ln balancing academic life and my well-being, but now I kind miss all the “fun” committee meetings and the thrill of working together with so many people. College organizations usually take a break during the holiday, but I am sure I can find other volunteering project online. This morning I already signed up for one event on Indorelawan and I expect to find some more interesting projects there. If you have any virtual event or project that might be interesting, please drop by the comment and give me a few recommendations!
I am also thinking about getting a part-time job or joining internship program. This is the area I am not familiar at all, so I feel a bit hesitant to step out. Most of the time, when I look on jobs or internship openings, I feel unqualified to apply. I don’t want to give myself so much pressure by trying to get job or internship during the holiday, but at least I want to have the courage to send my resumes to companies that interest me. After all, next year I am going to have to look for jobs too, so it’s better for me to get used to the all the paperwork and interviews.
Lastly, I just want to spend more time outside, even if it’s just at the front yard of my house. I currently have a cold and while the symptoms are not so bad, it still makes me feel uncomfortable. The weird thing is I usually get cold (temperature, not sickness) easily, but after getting sick, my body feels somehow warmer? It’s not fever, so it’s strange. The weather is not getting hotter, so I wonder what actually happens to my body.
I like that June had a lot of rainy days, though I am aware that might mean bad news for the climate. Will July rain a lot too? As much as I love rain, I hope it won’t. My reason is a bit silly though. I am afraid that my birth month won’t have any rain if it keeps raining throughout July and August.
What about you? Do you like rainy day or not? How is the weather where you live? I heard that in some places it’s getting really hot, but there are also places like mine, which stay cool even in the middle of the year. The weather might affect your plans for the summer, too, so I hope you can still have a good time, whatever weather you have in your living area. Don’t forget to take care of your health, since Covid is still here and I know there are a lot of people out there who still don’t have the privilege to get vaccinated or even to access proper health service. May you have a good day and I’ll see you tomorrow!
Credit: Journal prompt by myhoneststudyblr‘s Summer Studying Challenge.