49 Days Journal Challenge – Day 45

Sragen. 08.07.2020.

16:35. Listening to Ada Band’s Manusia Bodoh.

The word “almost” contains a lot of regrets and gratefulness. You almost passed. You almost failed. You almost died. You almost made it. We almost destroyed it. We almost created it. I almost finished it. I almost gave up.

I almost gave up.

Those words were the most familiar to me.

I almost gave up a lot of things. I almost gave up on friendship. I almost gave up on my family. I almost gave up on school. I almost gave up on my dream. I almost gave up on myself. I almost gave up on my life.

In a way, those words shows as long as you are moving on, life continues on. You almost gave up on friendship, but you didn’t so you still have your best friend beside you. You almost gave up on your family, but you didn’t so you still have your parents and your siblings who love you a lot. You almost gave up on school, but you didn’t and now you’re on your fourth year in college. You almost gave up on your dream, but here you are, writing and creating your dream life step by step. You almost gave up on yourself, but you continue to take care of yourself no matter how difficult it is and how much effort it takes from you. You almost gave up on your life, but you are still breathing–and that means the world.

Things come and go. You meet and leave. But as long as you don’t give up, it never truly ends. Maybe things don’t have any true ending–they just move on to different places, different things, different persons.

I almost gave up.

But I didn’t.

So I am still here, moving forward.

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