17.41 – Listening to DAY’s You Were Beautiful.
The name of the medicine is clozapine. After a bit of research, I found out that it is actually used to treat schizophrenia. I never understood why new, young doctors always gave me this kind of medicine. What should I do now? It affects my sleeping cycle terribly, even hours after I consumed it. Hell, its effect even lasted almost twenty four hours after I took the meds. My previous set of meds didn’t do that to me. How could I survive life like this?
I read some articles and they said I shouldn’t stop the usage suddenly, but I don’t like the feeling it causes. I know it’s unwise to decide matters like this on my own, but it’s my life. I don’t know.
Right now I’m at home. My parents and siblings are in the living room. In an hour, I will be having a dinner and head out to Grandma’s house for another sleepover. I spent most of today sleeping, so I’m feeling a bit frustrated–which turns out to be a difficult thing since the med still affects me.
But let it pass. Tomorrow is another day, another challenge, another adventure.
Be brave. Be happy. Maybe look up on the way to your next destination? It’s not going to rain tonight.
So have a good night.